some thoughts

Earlier this month, I was talking with my therapist about feeling a lot of pent up creative energy and not knowing how to get it out. I then had some realizations about my current creative outlets. I had created this website for myself and to share travel guides. I think subconsciously, I had these ‘rules’ in my head about what this space was for and if it didn’t fit those guidelines, I usually ended up sharing another photo with a long-winded caption on Instagram. That usually didn’t scratch the itch I was feeling and caused me to focus on getting likes instead. I was so focused on sharing my images and words to get a certain end goal. I pay for a freaking domain and don’t touch it because it felt like work. I desperately needed a reframe.

The problem, I realized, was that society (and capitalism, let’s be real) has created this pressure of having hobbies but that it should lead to something bigger like fame or profit. I’m not sure if this makes any ounce of sense but it was a big ‘aha’ moment for me. I work a very type A, non-creative full time job so of course I have this creative energy that needs to go somewhere. It’s just so upside down that I felt like that creative energy needed to lead to anything other than something fun for myself. Travel guides brought me such joy and satisfaction from the feedback I’d get but if I really focus on the why behind it, I was not doing it for myself.

So, I’m stripping the rules and guidelines I had created for myself in this space and using it as a place for whatever the heck I want to share, whenever I want to share, no plans or promises.

My new motto: No rules.

Okieeee, bye.